#ROW80 1ST QUARTER POST 4 – SUNDAY CHECK IN

O Hai!

Kind of looks like the inside of my head, except for the plastic guy. Okay, and except for all of the My Little Ponys. I think we should change "Sephiroth" to "Cthulhu" or "Zamorak," if "Cthulhu" isn't around. Did you ever notice how blasted hard it is to type "Cthulhu," and why in the Hell

can't we have a "Cthulhu" type quest in Runescape? Who do we have to pay off? Jagex? The Lovecraftian Archive?

  

So, what do I have to show for myself? I’m on cruise-control, so not much, this week. Another week older and a-deeper in debt, as the saying goes. I am in this weird kind of stasis, where one minute, I want to go like a bat out of hell, and then I am just fatigued beyond all reason the next minute. I can’t really concentrate very well when I’m in this state.

I had a bout of dementia when my sugar dropped the other night like I’ve never had before. And good ‘ol JC, being my wonderful man, talked me through it. When this happens, I know it’s coming and I just have to ride it like a rocket ship. Stuff starts seeming either too close, or this time everything was way far away and itty-bitty and had sped up. Sometimes, things slow down, and time drags. When this first happened, I had a psychotic break; it’s when I first manifested tremors that were noticeable, last March. But, hey! It’s all in my head; I’m just bipolar.

These “spells” last about 10 to 20 minutes and I remember them. They’re generally like Whee! Happy fun time! Except sometimes, I think I’m going to see God and I’m not so sure that I’m all ready to go, if you get my drift. But, everything starts making a kind of sense and I’m so damned hard-wired, that the cat, who is a chimera cat (ours is not QUITE as dramatic as Venus, but is similar)  and has the same colors and patterns as the rice cakes’ packaging and crackers’ packaging in my pantry, and the clock is always 4 minutes to midnight. I’m always watching “Numb3rs” on Hulu+ but sometimes, John Locke from “Lost” is on “Numb3rs” or Charlie Eppes from “Numb3rs” is on “Lost” and the dish towels are the same color as the uniforms of the football players on the TV that JC is watching and the jewels on “Bejeweled” always form a match 3 endlessly, until the sugar kicks in, and everything goes back to normal.  

Unless of course, there is ONE thing that is different. Then, I become immediately confused and don’t know what to do and all hell breaks loose. Not really, I just don’t know what to do and I can get panicked. That hasn’t happened in a while. The great thing is, I know if I eat something with sugar, I’ll be okay pretty quickly, but this is so exhausting. I’m not a diabetic, but this can’t be good for a body. My pulse races; my heart rate has gone as high as 120 and is high anyway. I’m lucky my cholesterol and blood pressure are low. I don’t want to start ranting about the medical community; what good is that going to do?

Governor Rick Scott - Beelzebub Party

"The Church Lady" from "SNL" would love this...

I do have one bit of lovely news. Florida Governor Rick Scott (R) is going to be the recipient of a gala jamboree-type rally being held by the Florida Association of Satanists, as they are named and in front of the Governor’s residence! No word on whether or not Twinkle-Toes is going to attend. I hope my invite is in the mail and I know; this is just too delicious for words! Maybe Governor Sparkle can sprout him some horns and hooves, eh? No, he already had them surgically removed; I’m confused. I just love the fact that there is a group of kooks out there who will embrace his charming personage. Maybe ol’ Scratch is collecting his debt early, hmm? 

Well, Microsoft bitches, it’s on. Blogger is still fucked up. Only it’s like a bad electrical problem in the wiring of my house, or maybe it's gremlins. It sure as hell isn't evil and it isn't mediocre on the best of days My work around is this: quit stalking me all over the fucking internet and I will quit telling everyone about what shitty software you write and foist on the world. You and I know that you write and push crap and that goes for all of your hardware “partnerships” and I oh wait, I lied. I don’t want your “15 minutes of  free tech support.” Don’t insult me. I shit better code than you ever did with a hangover when I was in school, writing QuickBasic. The logic hasn't changed, just your stupid bloated insecure crappy-ass bullshit. Your partners-in-crime, Oracle and Java with their beans got their asses in trouble. It's enough I use your shit. Quit bothering me on every goddamned website I visit. Go haunt someone who doesn't know their asses from their elbows and leave me the hell alone. Write a slimmed-down OS with no dancing baloney and shiny shit and I might actually write some apps.

I’m having too much fun with my new merry band of complainers. Some of us use IE (I don't even have IE on my system; that's some insecure shit right there,) some use FF, some use Chrome, we all use Blogger, which is probably a big mistake, right there. I started out all by myself, then I got like 45 new friends! I was so excited! Yay! And we were all bitching about the same thing… kind of. But, the point is, there are lots of random outbursts and asides. I notice the Blogger wizards are just as clueless as the people there to get help, so I seem to have found a new source of entertainment! Yay.

This week will probably see more cruise control, with a post about friendship and what it means. It turns out it means what we’re willing to invest in our lives. So, what does life mean to us? Rhetoric, I know. But I wrote lots of rhetoric in college and won awards for my writing. I never won awards for rhetorical living, though. Now, I’m trying to put all of the writing about into doing; it is not as easy as it sounds. 

#ROW80 1ST QUARTER POST 3 – MUSINGS ON A SATURDAY

Damn! I was going to get up and post something; I’m not really sure what. One of the more interesting things about life and all of the changes, like, yeah, when doesn’t it change? But here, lately? It changes with what seems to be an increase in exponential frequency. It could also be that my poor brain is just really in that stage where it perceives the changes occurring more rapidly. Unless I’m tired and I am right now. How ridic.

The warning labels weigh more than the bottle.

I ran out of my Topamax which really helps my bipolar condition which is one of MY manifestations of “PD or non-PD, blah-de-blah, blah-di-blah.” I missed ONE dose. By yesterday afternoon, I felt it. I was able to get my refill and all is well, or well-ish. But, because I already tried to murder my blog and had to deal with that havoc? (too strong a word, it WAS funny, but it’s change and I’m so hardwired, I clank if you bang on my head.) Therefore, I feel it physically, for a few days afterward. It sucks feeling so enervated after such a minor thing.

Then, horror of horrors! (not really, I love a challenge!) Microsoft’s LifeCam software was part of my latest batch of updates? “Bugpatches” is what we referred to them. Actually, Microsoft is not in the business of creating systems and applications. It’s just one giant Bug industry. It should be called Bugsoft, or Microbug, or Bugshit. The problem is this; with all of the intelligence and creativity that Bill Gates displayed at IBM, he took what was a robust and very workable product and dumbed it down.

Bill didn’t have to do that. He did that so that he could maximize his profit in a shorter period of time and he did it at the expense of the consumer and the industry. No one who has any kind of computer savvy or has ever worked in a hard computing environment, where you work either directly with servers or mainframes, think Windows-based platforms, or MACs, for that matter are worth a damn. I can’t speak for the gamers. I play one game, Runescape and ever since I killed JAVA, (read this article on why I killed JAVA; I'm no visionary, but I've been suspicious of JAVA for years and killed it for good last year.) I have to run it from Jagex's client. I could use Linux, or OS/2; I just don’t have the patience, and I really don’t have the patience with “PD Blargle….”

So, anyway, thanks Bill Gates. Once again, your software fucked up your software. I hope you’re happy. When I narrowed it down, I didn’t even go to your Knowledge Base to look for a “fix,” because then I would have needed a “fix” of a different kind. All of your shit sucks. Your software, community, your partnership with Dell. As an aside, their horrible Intel processors; AMD processors are much more elegant. Intel had an architectural flaw back in the 90s; for a while 2 + 2 equaled 5. No shit. Hot fix. Their integrity over time has never been truly sound. The AMDs can be overclocked via software and worked hard for years. Although I knew a guy once, who overclocked his with a knife; Mary don't do hardware. Last I knew, his was still working. They are that rugged.

Anyway, they're great for math, data-mining and algorithms, and wonderful for SETI@home, but back to Bill and his C- report card. Customer support, Website, F; big giant fail. I don't even go there. Everything you have ever done has had the stamp of slightly less than mediocre about it. I realize you have 7 gabillion dollars and you and your wife gave 1 billion of it to school kids. But the fact remains, you took your "MS"-DOS and left IBM. You tweaked the code here and there and built your Windows 1.0 off of that and all else followed.

No Words Needed

That was back in the day. IBM hung onto PC-DOS and built OS/2 1.0 and WARP off of that, which was killer and no, you couldn’t kill it AND you could run a Windows shell and MSOffice on the same system along with all of your Lotus (1-2-3, AmiPro,Notes) products. But Bill had to kill it. He didn’t want the competition. The sad thing here is, quality didn’t win out. IBM didn’t know how to market it’s product and Bill Gates did. Throw in Steve Jobs with his Apple bullshit and IBM never had a chance. Too corporate and too much spook. I’ve seen exactly 2 commercials on TV for WARP OS/2. I see the hardware ads, but the laptops are tooled by Lenovo.

I found this Time.com article on the history of WARP OS/2 to see if I remembered right. Some of it I did, some I didn’t. I worked at IBM from 1995 to 1998, then went to Verizon. This quote followed by the link to the article says it all:

Another of our guinea pigs, already an OS/2 fan, neatly summed up the software when he told us that it “thinks the way I think. [But] it’s not an end-user operating system; it’s a nerd operating system.”
Read more: http://techland.time.com/2012/04/02/25-years-of-ibms-os2-the-birth-death-and-afterlife-of-a-legendary-operating-system/#ixzz2Hn34rlI4

Geeze o pete. Am I a nerd? An enthusiastic one, but a nerd. Happy Saturday! Check in tomorrow!