I am completely breaking routine here and I am
going to be swift in this first part. I have posted nothing for ROW80 since
Tuesday, September 11, 2012. I intended and was working on a post as regards my
viola, Wolf. That has been postponed to I don’t know when. When the mood
strikes me and it’s not now.
I truly believe that my mental health is very
closely tied to my physical health, to the point that my physical well-being is
almost entirely overruled by my mental. I’m strong physically and when I’m
strong mentally, my body acts on command, whether autonomically, or when I move
at will. But, when I feel that dystonia, or when things are not right, it goes
to hell. I’m having a rough patch. I told you, my readers, friends and casual
drive bys that I would try not to evaporate and try not to end up at the Funny
Farm, again. I’m getting too old for this shit. I’m tired of starting anew and
I want to try and accomplish something; not just a bunch of “Sound and Fury
signifying Funny.” Well, that came out better than I thought; I’ll settle for
that; just not “Nothing,” or hopefully, “Nothing’s” boring fat sister “Mediocrity.”
This past week has been one of stress, for
everyone, I think. I’ve had a couple of weeks where I may have acted in haste
toward a friend and just said some mindless things. We got that ironed out, but
I hurt someone I cared about, and I like to think I’m not like that, at my
advanced age (perish the thought; it’s NOT about me!) I’m wiser and kinder than
that. Imagine my shock to find that I’m human after all!
The dystonia has rather increased because I feel
in a rut rather with my writing. It just seems that I’ve gotten into this
groove and it’s either, A) pick on Romney, B) bitch about the Bus, C) tell stories
about my, (fill in the blank.) I’m picking on myself, now. I try to
avoid ranting on about my health, because it just sounds so damned alarming,
but, there it is, and here we are: whatever is going on caused me to have 2
seizures on Monday. This is pretty much how I’ve lived my entire life and it
allowed me to have 2 careers at the same time and do them well; not
world-class, but I have credibility. I don’t know any other way to live. I just
live full-out, hell’s bells. It scared my mom to death. Writing has become the
same thing for me and I am at the point where I need to pay attention and step
back, once in a while. Fair enough.
The kind of
hang-on-to-your-hat, all-circuits-firing that I am so, so terrified of. I never
know if I’m going to have a heart attack or a stroke. My pulse has been high,
about 120, blah, blah. Only 3 weeks until I see my neurologist; it took me 9
months to get the state of Florida to get off the ASSES and do something. So, I
have about 19 more ROW80 columns and I will start another, again, just not as
regularly. The reason I’m telling you this is because after this post, I am not
going to be this serious again. I can’t do this. I take it to heart too strongly
and what we have done to the Middle East is horrible, indeed. It’s too hard on
me. So, I’m going to take it out of overdrive and write about puppies and
kittens or just do cyber-vandalism for a bit.
I don’t have TV; I pretty much read the news
desultorily, so I had to backtrack through HuffPo, the DailyBeast, and AndrewSullivan, via “The Dish” my go-to guys, but if I understand this properly, it goes
like this:
Terry Jones, an anti-Muslim pastor in Central Florida tweeted and
then apparently posted a link to a Youtube video portraying Muhammad as a drunk
and… right there, I thought “Oh, Jesú, that’s already asking for trouble.” A Muslim
considers an image or portrayal of Muhammad sacrilegious and a gross insult.
Why, oh why inflame people in that manner? There are zealots in every faith, in
every culture, for every cause. What is it about certain groups that bring out
the worst in people? Why did Nazis feel it necessary to shovel 6,000,000 Jews
and 5,000,000 other people into ovens in Death Camps. This is not the total
death count. I’ve seen the total estimated death count JUST for the Eastern
Front from 1939 – 1945 at 55,000,000. The United States lost 450,000. Yet, here’s
some fuckstick in Central Florida who thinks he has God’s Ear and is going to
burn the Koran and prove a point. People wonder why I am so goddamned crazy.
Well, I digress, but the point is this. We are brutal and evil and we are so,
because we don’t even try to understand, we just brandish around a bunch of
lies and misconceptions and think we have a cause. Now, back to our subject.
Okay, So, we have an asshole in Gainesville, who on September 11,
2012, has deemed it his “mission” to put on Youtube some really stupid video with
jackholes wearing a bunch of fake beards and a lot of really shitty acting
commit sacrilege and heresy and piss off a group of people, who, the Obama
Administration has been working with. Some of them are actually GOING along
with the ARAB SPRING, but it’s TOUCH and GO, because, these people don’t
necessarily TRUST the WEST. GEE, I WONDER WHY??? (The capitals are mine.)
Said Asshole commits further assholery by answering when asked
about his sense of responsibility for the attacks on the embassies and the
death of Ambassador Stevens and other Americans, by commenting “I don’t think
speech can be limited, to say OK, if I say this, then this could happen. I
believe we absolutely don’t have that responsibility.” As Andrew
Sullivan so rightly points out in his The Dish article, “I'm a free speech
absolutist - but I'm not an anti-religion absolutist. I think a little respect
for religions we don't share is something most Americans would think is
precisely an American value.” Although I can’t really point to a shared
analogy, I believe there is a shared value; respect implies responsibility. If
you have no respect for your country or your faith, you sure as hell have no
responsibility and are no shepherd. Jones needs to get his scurvy ass out of
the pulpit. Note: in his article, Sullivan is referring to Romney. I applied the analogy here to Jones to make a point. I believe the principle is true. If I am wrong, please let me know.
I hope I haven’t lost anyone on the logic trail. I know I get
convoluted; blame it on the Jesuits. I almost fried my brain getting to this
point. Right about here, the synapses started to blow. Because what happened
next? Sure enough, the Mother Ship makes a (is it a one-way flight? I pray not)
stop and drops off one Willard M. Romney, along with some of his fellow space
aliens. Rombley then proceeds to huff and blow about what a complete mess the
Obama Administration is making out of this attack by apologizing for a
statement for a statement neither the White House nor the State Department made.
Color me huh? Romney is an even bigger tool and idiot than I ever
thought. But since he was dropped off by the big Tuba In The Sky, what do we
expect? Most of the GOP keep their yaps shut, with the exception of Donald
Rumsfeld, Sarah Palin and that Reince Prebtensa (I just can’t figure out that
name.) So, Will-Mitt is joined by a discredited Sec of Defense, Space Cadet and
Unpronounceable name, who all escaped from the Mother Ship, when they booted
the Romster. The rest of the GOP was silent; they either did not agree with
Romney or had collective laryngitis. I’m not sure if there was any condemning
going on. If I belonged to the GOP, I probably would have broken ranks, but
since they all donated their balls over there to the Nutical guys, they’re
quiet on matters they should be barking about. Damn! I shouldn’t even joke
about this. But the GOP, Romneysham, the whole Circus-Zoo is just horrible. I
can’t help it.
Lost in all of this is the fact that, once
again, the Middle East is in turmoil. How banal and tame it sounds. Damascus, one
of the oldest cities from Antiquity is rubble. It’s starting to look like
Stalingrad did in 1943. There are other cities that are experiencing uprisings.
People in al-Qaeda who stand to lose tremendous influence are taking advantage
of this incident. Admittedly, this one thing is not the sole cause for this
conflagration. Again, it is close to September 11, the “anniversary,” date and
Jones knows how strongly the abjurement regarding any graven images. So, the
deliberate act shouldn’t be lost on the U.S. What seems lost in all of this
confusion and mayhem are the people in these Middle Eastern Muslim countries who
have befriended the U.S., at great cost to themselves.
There are people who live in these countries who
have counted on us to help. Who in good faith said yes, we want to have a
democracy. We no longer want to have strongmen who steal our freedom and
dictate and proscribe to us our liberties, if we’re allowed to have any at all.
We want to raise our families in peace. We want to be your friends. We did
something that may not be easily forgiven. We’ve befriended a country that has
been looked at as our enemy. Some groups see you as an Evil, but we don’t
believe that. We think you’re good. We want to help you, because we want to
have some freedoms too.
On September 11, 2011, planes flew into the
World Trade Center. Many people were hurt. Many lives were lost. People ran
into the buildings at great cost to themselves. Many who went in to help did
not survive. Some, who went to save lives, were visitors to the U.S. That does
not matter. But this does. In the rocket attack, some Libyans ran to rescue embassy
personnel from the shelled building and the mobs. More than 48 hours and
several sources later, this is what I can piece together, 4 dead, 3 or more
injured.
I have said that I will cry “bullshit” when I
smell it, even if I spout it or think it. Originally, I saw 1 picture that
shows 3 Libyan men carrying Mr. Stevens to the hospital and was told that was
so by AP and their stringer. In doing my own research, I’ve run across at least
3 other sources, 2 of which are Arabic that could be depicted as “mobs.” So, I
don’t know and the State department is not forthcoming. Still, it begs the
point. Why be inflammatory during an “anniversary” period, much like April 19th
is a time of heightened sensitivity, for Oklahoma City, which we recognize. Why
do we even allow the loony asshole Terry Jones to spew his hate? Oh yeah, nvm.
In the end, we’re held hostage by a man who has no conscience and no sense of
responsibility even to his own flock, let alone his country. Jones has sown
dragon’s teeth that are in fertile soil indeed.
I find the implications of this stunning, tragic
and just beyond ultimate horror. If you want Evil, here it is. Let’s start in
our own back yard and turn it right back onto our own. I’m so ill with this.
September 11, 2001 wasn’t bad enough. We just can’t lance this boil of hatred
and perversity, can we? So, here’s what I’m going to do. I’m going to finish my
ROW80 commitment. I really want to do that. I think it’s the right thing for me
to do. I will always and forever have Homeless Chronicles in Tampa. But I am
sick, not so sick that I am going to die, but I am sick of all of this
senseless grandstanding and total horseshit. So, I am going to take it to the
next level.
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